dammit the portal wont log me in!! at the library now during second lunch break.Arrgesh couldnt log in too.stupid chemistry.
i feel kinda lost in the midst of people's friends who dont even acknowledge me.
Oh well,c'est la vie.
LAN presentation later.Music Club later.
Nothing is in my mind.blank blank blank.I think I should go ask Arrgesh if he could print his notes now.
Thursday, 4 February 2010
Sunday, 31 January 2010
difficult.
It's at these times I feel like shutting out the world and give up on everything I've ever wanted.
Sometimes I wish I could just stop smiling to every friendly face and instead be one who is a loner.One who doesn't know the meaning of happiness.For what is struggle to be compared with if happiness lost its meaning?
I wanted to be able to accept the difference.
I wanted to be able to prove people wrong.
I thought being strong by holding it all together would get me to what I want,
but nahh.
Holding it all in
just makes me
want
to cry.
Sometimes I wish I could just stop smiling to every friendly face and instead be one who is a loner.One who doesn't know the meaning of happiness.For what is struggle to be compared with if happiness lost its meaning?
I wanted to be able to accept the difference.
I wanted to be able to prove people wrong.
I thought being strong by holding it all together would get me to what I want,
but nahh.
Holding it all in
just makes me
want
to cry.
Saturday, 30 January 2010
Different
continuing from where I left off from the previous post,I went for literature class only to be hugged by 2 friends there and stood in the middle of the class 2.13 while 1/3rd of the class sang a birthday song for me.It was abit awkward though it felt nice :) Sometimes I wish I was in an all girls class,you know?
It was when I rushed to thinking skills class back at e1 when suddenly yew weng walked over to me holding a cake box.I think if it wasn't for the cake,the class wouldn't have sang me a birthday song.
I felt like crying at that time,in a way.I mean,it may not be something planned earlier or maybe it was but the point is even through my primary and secondary life I realized I've never been treated to a surprise anything for my birthday.How many times did I stood in the crowd of friends,singing along a birthday song for another friend.It kills me with joy when those surprises really worked,when the birthday girl was in utter shock and surprise.
I didnt cut the cake in class though and have everyone celebrate for me today,not like what we used to do in our circle of friends.But it was more then enough for me to think how nice new friends can be.
Dont get me wrong,I still love you guys/girls who have been with me for the past years.We have been really good friends long enough to make me not bother about getting presents and surprises or in this case,not getting them.Seriously,I think that the older I get the more presents lost its importance.
It's just so awesome to think how new friends are willing to be that nice even if it is just for the day,given it as an act of kindness since it was my birthday.
It may be a bit too much for me to feel so emotional over this but as corny as it sounds,I think this birthday at college will be stored in my memory till the day I wanna reminisce bout something happy.
thanks to Kell Jim and William for the necklace - totally unexpected and you guys didnt need to! Seriously.
Yew Weng,Ding Liang,Shuen Fang and Yun Pin for the cake - I can't get enough of saying thank you.
All the other college mates who wished me today.The sincere ones.
Don't mind me.Just writing this down here so I wont forget that this happened ;)
It was when I rushed to thinking skills class back at e1 when suddenly yew weng walked over to me holding a cake box.I think if it wasn't for the cake,the class wouldn't have sang me a birthday song.
I felt like crying at that time,in a way.I mean,it may not be something planned earlier or maybe it was but the point is even through my primary and secondary life I realized I've never been treated to a surprise anything for my birthday.How many times did I stood in the crowd of friends,singing along a birthday song for another friend.It kills me with joy when those surprises really worked,when the birthday girl was in utter shock and surprise.
I didnt cut the cake in class though and have everyone celebrate for me today,not like what we used to do in our circle of friends.But it was more then enough for me to think how nice new friends can be.
Dont get me wrong,I still love you guys/girls who have been with me for the past years.We have been really good friends long enough to make me not bother about getting presents and surprises or in this case,not getting them.Seriously,I think that the older I get the more presents lost its importance.
It's just so awesome to think how new friends are willing to be that nice even if it is just for the day,given it as an act of kindness since it was my birthday.
It may be a bit too much for me to feel so emotional over this but as corny as it sounds,I think this birthday at college will be stored in my memory till the day I wanna reminisce bout something happy.
thanks to Kell Jim and William for the necklace - totally unexpected and you guys didnt need to! Seriously.
Yew Weng,Ding Liang,Shuen Fang and Yun Pin for the cake - I can't get enough of saying thank you.
All the other college mates who wished me today.The sincere ones.
Don't mind me.Just writing this down here so I wont forget that this happened ;)
Friday, 29 January 2010
birthday@college
appreciate those who took an effort who wish me .
I hated birthdays for a certain reason where i don't see a point in it.
nonetheless,thank you to my friends and family who remembers and wished me the best today :)
eventhough its probably from the facebook notifications.
thank you to my college friends like yew weng,kell jim and william who seems more excited about my birthday then i am.I was really really surprised that jim and william got us presents.
Imma have tree huggers meeting and orientation party (which i claim as my birthday party) tonight.something different for a change,i guess.retro yo!!
maybe life don't suck so bad after all?
God bless.I should enjoy today while the contentment lasts.
I'm loving that I'm alive.For now :)
I hated birthdays for a certain reason where i don't see a point in it.
nonetheless,thank you to my friends and family who remembers and wished me the best today :)
eventhough its probably from the facebook notifications.
thank you to my college friends like yew weng,kell jim and william who seems more excited about my birthday then i am.I was really really surprised that jim and william got us presents.
Imma have tree huggers meeting and orientation party (which i claim as my birthday party) tonight.something different for a change,i guess.retro yo!!
maybe life don't suck so bad after all?
God bless.I should enjoy today while the contentment lasts.
I'm loving that I'm alive.For now :)
Tuesday, 12 January 2010
1001BS1
I felt lost.I made a friend.Who is not in my class ,unfortunately.
I think I might be the minority (we're talking maybe 2 or 3 perperson) who is taking Eng Lit in class.
I dont like being minority =(
I hate my new schedule.
I have so much to say about today but it's best that I keep quiet about it maybe for at least a few weeks.
I think I might be the minority (we're talking maybe 2 or 3 perperson) who is taking Eng Lit in class.
I dont like being minority =(
I hate my new schedule.
I have so much to say about today but it's best that I keep quiet about it maybe for at least a few weeks.
Monday, 11 January 2010
Scared!
I'm starting college tomorrow~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't sleep at night these days.Like,seriously.
People whom call themselves nocturnal or an insomniac,well,redefine your meaning!
Cause I barely sleep these days and it's starting to scare the shit outta me since I'd be driving to college from now on.
Oh,and my dad wants me to sign up at a gym cause he says my appetite is too big T________T
(and that I'm too lazy but so what??who isn't???)
Whats wrong having a fat kid?
Aren't we cute as hell??????????
=(
I can't sleep at night these days.Like,seriously.
People whom call themselves nocturnal or an insomniac,well,redefine your meaning!
Cause I barely sleep these days and it's starting to scare the shit outta me since I'd be driving to college from now on.
Oh,and my dad wants me to sign up at a gym cause he says my appetite is too big T________T
(and that I'm too lazy but so what??who isn't???)
Whats wrong having a fat kid?
Aren't we cute as hell??????????
=(
Wednesday, 6 January 2010
Wow.
I just hopped over to some junior's blogs and wow.I can't help but to think I was just like them last year.Things happened so fast.
What differs though,is that they blog about having finish their holiday homeworks and such,vowing to study consistently and whatever it is that a normal student would promise to do at each begining of the year.
Wow.
I knew I've been slacking even through my SPM year ,my SPM month,my SPM week.
And its too late to turn back time but I guess 2010 is a new year and that allows me in a way to grow and become more responsible of myself considering I'd be flying to the UK by next year,provided that I do well in my exams.
I feel a tad sense of pride over those juniors whom I don't really know.
Whom had begun to take charge over what they are doing.
Whom knows what they are doing,for their own sake.
I feel so old now :)
I miss my friends and the laid-back environment in school.
I miss sitting on the dirty pavements comfortably knowing the familiar faces of those surrounding me.
I regret many things for the past years.
One of them,my effort in studies.
However so,I'm crossing my fingers to not regret anything I do this year.
I'm worried,I'm scared,I'm excited.
I could feel the adrenaline rush.
What differs though,is that they blog about having finish their holiday homeworks and such,vowing to study consistently and whatever it is that a normal student would promise to do at each begining of the year.
Wow.
I knew I've been slacking even through my SPM year ,my SPM month,my SPM week.
And its too late to turn back time but I guess 2010 is a new year and that allows me in a way to grow and become more responsible of myself considering I'd be flying to the UK by next year,provided that I do well in my exams.
I feel a tad sense of pride over those juniors whom I don't really know.
Whom had begun to take charge over what they are doing.
Whom knows what they are doing,for their own sake.
I feel so old now :)
I miss my friends and the laid-back environment in school.
I miss sitting on the dirty pavements comfortably knowing the familiar faces of those surrounding me.
I regret many things for the past years.
One of them,my effort in studies.
However so,I'm crossing my fingers to not regret anything I do this year.
I'm worried,I'm scared,I'm excited.
I could feel the adrenaline rush.
Tuesday, 5 January 2010
Christmas 2009 - an update -ah! finally!!!
Since I'm stuck here watching Backyardigans with Megan,I thought I might as well get procrastination over with and start blogging like how I said I would this year!
But we should work our way up to 2010 right?Since my studies only start next Tuesday,I should take advantage of this grace period to keep my blog up to date.
First up,Christmas 2009.
We had lunch at Chilli's catching up while filling our bellies :D!
we had molten lava cake or something! Yums!
At topshop,trying on clothes lol.I dont seem to be on a clothes frenzy that time....
so I went for really weird tops just for a laugh.it wasnt fun though! cause Lu ee made her weird top looks nice.(PY's one not shown due to personal reasons.)
On the way back home.Lu Ee's dad fetched us :D
Bought these awesum lipbalms at diva and shared :D mine is the french manicured nail,Lu Ee's is the hot pink and Yuk is the maroon.
Sorry the pictures are messed up.Blogger being a *tut*.
No mood to blog already cause of the mess up.
But we should work our way up to 2010 right?Since my studies only start next Tuesday,I should take advantage of this grace period to keep my blog up to date.
First up,Christmas 2009.
I usually spend my christmas day doing nothing.Lazing around until at night where I would go online and be miserable.This ( I mean last,considering its 2'10 already) Christmas was a twist of simple happiness.Spent it with a friend I treasure at 1Utama.
We had lunch at Chilli's catching up while filling our bellies :D!
we had molten lava cake or something! Yums!
At topshop,trying on clothes lol.I dont seem to be on a clothes frenzy that time....
so I went for really weird tops just for a laugh.it wasnt fun though! cause Lu ee made her weird top looks nice.(PY's one not shown due to personal reasons.)
On the way back home.Lu Ee's dad fetched us :D
Bought these awesum lipbalms at diva and shared :D mine is the french manicured nail,Lu Ee's is the hot pink and Yuk is the maroon.
Sorry the pictures are messed up.Blogger being a *tut*.
No mood to blog already cause of the mess up.
THINGS TO UPDATE ABOUT :
-New Year's Eve /New Year's
-HC 's farewell.
-Beringin papa rich
-New Year's Eve /New Year's
-HC 's farewell.
-Beringin papa rich
Friday, 1 January 2010
2010
i had a blast! best new year's eve to date.
taman desa rawks man! will post bout the whole day ( i think) when i get the pictures.
im missing my fellow peers alot! starting college soon.
kinda nerve-wrecking.ive been in the same school among the same people since i was 7.
change.turning point of my teenage life?maybe.
love y'all! i wanna see Duncan!.
toodles <3
taman desa rawks man! will post bout the whole day ( i think) when i get the pictures.
im missing my fellow peers alot! starting college soon.
kinda nerve-wrecking.ive been in the same school among the same people since i was 7.
change.turning point of my teenage life?maybe.
love y'all! i wanna see Duncan!.
toodles <3
Saturday, 26 December 2009
Sometimes...
Sometimes,
I look around to see my friends around me.
But they aren't really there.
Have you ever felt lost in the midst of familiar faces?Drowned by the voices of those whom you've known what seems like forever?Lonely even when you are actually comfortably surrounded by people you know?
Sometimes,
I don't have friends.
Sometimes,
I don't know what to do because I have nothing.
My life seems meaningless at the moment.
What do we live for?We're all gonna die anyways.
Sometimes.Just sometimes.
Thursday, 17 December 2009
Wednesday, 16 December 2009
at 17.
it was love at first sight!
Sorry,I'll take that back.Even before seeing him,I fell heads over heels for him.
I haven't the slightest idea why majority of girls would be preferring Edward hands down over Jacob in the book,let alone the movie itself.
Unfortunately,
Jacob Black really goes for older women.Hmph! First Bella,now Talyor Swift??
O thy Jacob! When will u see the light that I AM YOUR SOULMATE.
I dont care if ure a fictional character.Just look at that!at 17!
Chiseled abs.Strong jaw.Tan skin.
who would want a cold,pale vampire that glitters ?
But I respect all of you as independent individuals with rights .
Choose Edward Cullen.Leave Jacob Black to me.
I love his character,even before Twilight was released in the cinemas.
I loved how he treats Bella,
I loved how he is warm,
I loved how he tries to protect Bella,
I loved everything lah basically.
I love Jacob Black :D
Yeah,I watched New Moon,rushed to TGIFriday to meet Minda Ceria gang(love love!) ,met Shi Mun and Sandra again,meet Hui Cin after shopping,went back to Hui Cin's house and came home around 9+.
Going Penang tomorrow! I love love love that state!
Miss me.
Sorry,I'll take that back.Even before seeing him,I fell heads over heels for him.
I haven't the slightest idea why majority of girls would be preferring Edward hands down over Jacob in the book,let alone the movie itself.
Unfortunately,
Jacob Black really goes for older women.Hmph! First Bella,now Talyor Swift??
O thy Jacob! When will u see the light that I AM YOUR SOULMATE.
I dont care if ure a fictional character.Just look at that!at 17!
Chiseled abs.Strong jaw.Tan skin.
who would want a cold,pale vampire that glitters ?
But I respect all of you as independent individuals with rights .
Choose Edward Cullen.Leave Jacob Black to me.
I love his character,even before Twilight was released in the cinemas.
I loved how he treats Bella,
I loved how he is warm,
I loved how he tries to protect Bella,
I loved everything lah basically.
I love Jacob Black :D
*
Yeah,I watched New Moon,rushed to TGIFriday to meet Minda Ceria gang(love love!) ,met Shi Mun and Sandra again,meet Hui Cin after shopping,went back to Hui Cin's house and came home around 9+.
Going Penang tomorrow! I love love love that state!
Miss me.
Saturday, 12 December 2009
my today
was not much.I woke up at two!Goodness.
I should adopt better and healthier habits now that SPM is over.
wanted to meet Hui Cin at Wangsa Maju but failed.
I went there late.
I need a microphone!!!!! webcamming aint fun without a mike.*christmas hint*
Gotta go,I am busy doing nothing with no one to layan.*hints sin hui cin who didnt reply my msg*
I should adopt better and healthier habits now that SPM is over.
wanted to meet Hui Cin at Wangsa Maju but failed.
I went there late.
I need a microphone!!!!! webcamming aint fun without a mike.*christmas hint*
Gotta go,I am busy doing nothing with no one to layan.*hints sin hui cin who didnt reply my msg*
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
*
just copying things here for awhile cause i hate to scroll down my wall in facebook.